Yes party of three

I know it's been months since I blogged. So I failed. My short term goals ....fail! Going to the gym?? FAIL! Paying off debts, working on it. House... Half clean. Books, reading more than one at the same time. Mood...fuck you.

Today is my birthday and I can bitch if I want to :P

I have issues. Brian has been gone over a month now. This one has been harder than the others. No communication. I feel more alone right now than ive ever been before. Regardless of the support I do have and the friends here I have. I feel lacking in many things but mostly within myself.

One of the hardest things I've done is realize its time to ask for help. Now if said help will improves the slump I'm in ......we'll see.

Cleaning house is never ending... They are coming...they are coming.

Started Riley on meds. But I think I need them more than him. :)

Biggest annoyance today. Went to Texas Roadhouse for dinner. I tell the host party of three. Waitress takes us to table. "Just the three of you?"
Yes yes just us, cause why would I say party of three if isnt just us three!!! What!? Youve never seen a mom take her kids out with no dad?!? Is there a memo i didn't get??! Thanks for reminding me we're missing a member of our family. Bitch....

Lastest read: Downside Ghosts series by Stacia Kane. It's dark, paranormal, futuristic, sex and Violence!!! I LOVE this series!!!!! Couldn't stop reading. Read on 4 books in two days. If you like Ilona Andrews series you will like this one.

Here is also a pic of the mothers day cards I made for the moms in my life.

I'm out of beer....

I have been suffering a Riley tantrum at least once everyday for over a week. I've already decided to go ahead and start medicating him for ADHD. But if this behavior keeps up, I'll be the one who needs to be medicated! Cause drinking a beer..or two then going to bed isn't cutting it plus I'm out and keep forgetting to buy more LOL. My husband should be home by the end of the week but to be honest it's not going to help with Riley's behavior. If anything it'll get worse because my husband doesn't like to fight with Riley and gives in to his demands. So then I'm fighting them both and getting no headway. At least I'll get some girl time in when Brian gets home. Hope the weather gets warmer so I can get back on my pouch and chill. Yes I am a glorified porch monkey. :)

I've stocked up in a bunch of books but now the urge to read is fading...time to craft! And by craft i mean im going to make some Valentines Day cards this weekend. Something I can get the kids involved in for at least a short time. Maybe I'll make some heart chocolates too.

I've been accused of having Mr. Darcy syndrome. Meaning I have no social skills with new people and have a hard time finding things to say. I don't know how to act. Im not shy by all means but I just don't do well with people I don't know and importantly trust. So I put a post on a FB Fort Bragg Wife page inviting people over to make valentines. See this is me trying to reach out and make friends. Now if I can follow thru and keep them is the real goal. I try so it's something.

Work out goals have been a fail...maybe when things calm down with Riley.

New goals this week-
Work out once this week???
File taxes
Clean garage
Organized closests
Remember to go to DeStress class on Friday
Prepare for making Valentines
Pray for more patience ..I have more than some but I'm reaching my limit.....

Glitter FAIL

I admit it....I'm totally addicted to Pinterest.com. More so than Facebook! I pin everything that catches my eye, all great ideas, decor stuff and most importantly DIY crafts! One of the first things I pinned was a DIY ecofriendly glitter. The directions call for 1/4 cup salt, 1/2 teaspoon food coloring, mix and spread onto foil lined baking sheet. Bake at 350 for ten minutes.

My results was what looks like colored sand. So I tried baking for another 10 minutes. No change. So I thought maybe it has to cool. No change. Then I tried using sea salt which is alittle thicker and bigger in size. It looks better but no shinny glitter! So either this is a complete fail or the picture used with this recipe is an extreme case of false advertisement.

Valentine Decor on a Budget.

I am I am one of those people who put up decorations for every holiday and season. But I am also one of those people on a budget. But a tight budget plan doesnt have to put a damper on your holiday fun. Less is more I always say and keeping things simple...stupid. :) I do subtle touchs in my house, all which you can do for about $20.

Window Clings: I usually have them on my living room, kitchen windows AND I put them on my bathroom mirrors.

Hand Towels/Kitchen Towels: Hanging in your bathroom, hanging from you oven. Adds alittle flare to each room.

Welcome sign/wreath: I always have something hanging from my door.

Kids Projects: I make items with my kids or use items they made at school. I hang them up year after year.

The rest I pick up over the years when they go 75% off. Little knick knacks on your end table/book shelves ect. I like to have something on the top of my book shelfs. It would be safe to say that 90% of my holiday decor was bought when they are 60%-90% off. Some items I pick up before the clearance but using a coupon. Lately Ive noticed with stores like Hobby Lobby that if you find something you really like, you better buy it ASAP or it'll be gone long before it evens gets to 50% off.

This year I was NOT impressed with the selection of Valentines Day decor items at Hobby Lobby and other places. Which started my build my own decor phase. Something Im going to extend thru out the year...hopfully. Today I used the chip board XOXO I bought earlier at Hobby Lobby for $2 a piece. I traced the letters onto red and white glitter paper, cut out and glued on. I then added punch out hearts and ribbon. A very cute decor item for the top of my book shelf that probably costed me about $12.

Next I found on pinterest.com how to make heart shaped paper chain. Very cute and looks really simple to do but the instructions were in a different language.

So here is MY instructions in english:

Cardstock cut 1inX6in for bigger hearts increase size
Fold each strip in half using bone folder or pencil.
Staple at fold, then bend strips down. You'll find that your paper wont bend so softly so I used a smooth surfaced pencil/pen to bend the paper in a curl.
Bend ends down and meet together, bring to inside of next piece fold, staple. Then repeat.

I made today a heart using the heart chain. I made a chain with 15 hearts per side. I stapled the end together. Then I made an extra heart for middle and glued dot the ends to the extra heart. I added the ribbon with the heart in the center to help with it weight to keep the shape.

I also melted crayons today into heart molds. I didnt make as many as I wanted for my son's class. I would really love to make chocolate suckers for them but we are not allowed to "make" them treats. It all has to be prepackaged. Cant say I blaim the school for that rule.

Recipe Inspirations

I have been cooking for over 8 years now and I have reach a spunk where I'm making the same things week after week. One day as I was grocery shopping I came across in the spices section little tablets with a recipe and the spices needed to cook it. All you needed to do was grab the meat/wet ingredients. These are called Recipe Inspiration by McCormick. These have really helped spice up our dinner routine with new quick and easy recipes. Our all time favorite was the Quesadilla Casserole. What's super cool about them is the recipe pulls right off in the back so I only have to buy each one once. My goal this year is to make a new recipe every week. This week was Spanish Chicken Skillet. It was ok but not something I think I make again.

Use what you have..Make it work!

I am on a mission this year to make my own holiday decor myself and cheaply! I went to Michaels today with my mom. They still had quite a collection of Christmas stuff on clearance. As I was searching thru the piles I came across a large white destressed picture frame for 75% off!! I planning on using it for a St Patricks decor item. Still throwing some ideas for that. I also picked at Hobby Lobby thick chip board XOXOs. Sometime this week before my mon leaves we're going to decorate them somehow.

Today I was browsing Pinterest for ideas and came across a pin of a heart made out of Legos. I showed it to my son Donovan who is a huge Lego fan. I asked him if he could make me one or to help me make one. His response was "You don't know how to make that!" I could never turn away from a challenge. I think I did a good job. Donny made no comment after I showed him and yelled "In your face!!" I think watching all these kids shows are running off on me LOL. If you never heard of the "Regular Show" on Cartoon Network, you need to check it out.

Cat Hair and Tantrums

The past couple days I have been dealing with an extreme case of separation anxiety with my son Riley. Don't feel like going into details but lots of crying screaming and clinging. I don't know what's harder listening to your son scream "Don't leave me!!" or trying to not sure it's affecting you and walking away. Let's just say yesterday I cried and a took a long nap. By the time he adjusts to Daddy being gone he'll be home again. Then it'll start all over again when the big "D" comes. Sighhhhhhhhh

Today I am doing last detail cleaning for my moms arrival tomorrow. Which includes vaccuuming up all the blasted cat hair. I'm thinking of washing my curtains because it's literally caked on them. But now that I got the Fermanator I've noticed it's not as bad anymore. If you have a pet who sheds I highly recommend getting this brush, worth every penny!

Another problem I run into when my husband is gone is dinner time. I hate making big meals since one I hate left overs and two I have the pickiest eater in my 8 year old son. I always assumed he out grow this but alas NO!! Last night he said to me over turkey sandwiches and rowmen noddles "Why can't we eat what I like?" and I replied "Because you don't like anything and I'm sick of pizza and breakfast foods". I swear the next time he complains about dinner I'm signing us up to volunteer in a soup kitchen or something along feeding the needy.